i was driving around tonight and was thinking about some stuff, just like i do ALL the time. there was this guy walking by himself, probably from the gym after playing some basketball because he was carrying one, on the way back to his dorm, and it made me think.

i really hope he is going home to an apartment full of roommates that he can laugh with and joke with and be rowdy with. i hope he isn't finding adjusting to byu too hard. i hope he will be able, if he hasn't already, to find a niche and be able to make his freshmen year of college a memorable one full of awesome experiences and good times.

i hope all these things for that person i have never met or will ever talk to because i know how it feels to be him. i know what it is like to come home to an empty apartment, or to an apartment that you do not fit in with. i know how EXTREMELY hard it is to fit in at byu. and how hard it is to find a niche, and to make freshmen year an awesome experience. luckily i had 1 and 1/2 chances at a freshmen year thanks to my job as an RA.

then it got me thinking about some other stuff, like how there are problems in this world that are way bigger than having a great freshmen year at college. i remembered about how there is a lot of hurt and heartache in this world. i can remember flying over las vegas on my way to boise for my brother's graduation and looking down at all the houses below. all those houses represented gobs and gobs of people. and all those people have good and bad in their lives. some have more bad than good. and that isn't fair. i remember thinking i just wished i could fix it all for all those people, those mommas, and children, and dads, and lonely old people, and lost people, all of them; but i can't. first, it is impossible for me to do that. and second, it isn't my place. that fixing is Someone Else's responsibility, not mine.

but i know that i do have people in my sphere of life that i can help. i can smile, and joke, and make people laugh, and listen, and make cookies and do a lot of other things for people i interact with on a daily basis. and that is where i can also feel like i am making a difference in trying to change all of the hurt that exists in this world. so i will just keep doing that.

baking cookies is way easier than trying to fix an entire human race anyway.